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Pimp My Artwork 044: At Louche Ends


The cover I did for Maria Alexander's At Louche Ends: Poetry for the decadent, the damned, and the absinthe minded has finally been revealed.  The chapbook will be out next month through Burning Effigy Press.  This book is quite special as the "Trio of Trouble" was united for it's making.  Maria wrote the poetry, I created the cover and, Jill Tracy wrote the introduction.  Indeed it will be magic.



Pimp My Artwork 038: Full Moon in Libra Brings Two Cards

It's a full moon in libra so what better thing to do that give you two tarot cards and few spells.  They can be done even after the full moon.  So what is the energy for the next two weeks?  Well it's all about balance.  It's time to regroup and take hold of your emotions.  In order to find harmony you must go within.  The moon card teaches us to do just that.  Modeled after good friend Jill Tracy.  This card was started on during the waning moon and finished right before the full moon.  A cycle indeed.

The moon card means going within, listening to those dark dreams that call out to you.  It also represents mad genius.  With Neptune in Pisces and the Moon being a card all about Pisces, it's time to go deep.  Instead of wallowing in darkness, let the moon guide you, let that creative energy flow and tap into places you've never gone before.  The Moon signifies great creativity, enhanced psychic powers, and visions. Your judgment may not always be trustworthy, but you will have intuitive flashes that are remarkably accurate.  It's an excellent time to take note of dreams.

I started this card during the waning moon and quickly fell under it's spell.  The moon you see can cause madness but it also teaches you to trust your intuition, and boy did it teach me that. 

A Simple Cleansing Solution:

Take sea salt, lavender, and rosemary.  Mix together to create a scrub.  Use in the shower to gain clarity and cleanse away and negativity.

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Choices, choices, choices.  The lovers represent somebody or something that truly just crashed your world.  You want it so much but at the same time, you've had what you thought was a clear path.  It's a risk if you choose to follow what your heart is telling you, and yet this card is not about emotion.  It is about the psyche, the connection, and the messages you are about to receive.

It is about something that speaks to you, that you "know" and recognize as your other half or mirror image, and which makes you feel harmonically balanced or complete.  Your friends and family may think you're crazy for falling so quickly.  Now remember this card is not always a person, it could be a piece of land, an instrument, or a piece of art. 

Yet you can say "no" to this attraction. You do have that choice. If, however, you don't allow yourself to try and make this person, career, challenge or thing a part of your life, you may regret it, profoundly and forever. -Aeclectic Tarot

The Love Pendulum

The pendulum can be used for many things including finding lost items and communicating with spirits.  If you find yourself in a "Lovers" type situation and like to know if this person or thing is right then here's the spell.  Take a ring that has sentimental value. Suspend it on red silk thread or ribbon. if you have anything that has a direct connection with the person place it on the table or floor in front of you.  It can be a picture, a note, and article of clothing etc.  Place the pendulum over the picture and visualize that person and all the positive and negative qualities.  Then say:

Av, mi Romani mal

Pawdel dur chumbas

Av kitane' mansa?

This is roughly translated to "Come my Gypsy friend, over the hills and so far away.  Will you come along with me?"

Repeat this 3 times.  The pendulum will begin to swing.  If it swings back and forth it is a yes.  If it swings side to side, that is a no.  Clockwise, yes and counterclockwise, no.

(I found this spell in a journal I had as a teenager.  I'm not sure where it comes from but once I find out I'll give credit where credit is due.)


You will need:

7 small white candles

An oil mix of rose (love), lavender (peace and tranquility), verbena (cleansing), and laurel/bay leaves (protection)

(You can also mix these herbs together and place them into an oil base for candle dressing)

white flowers

Something to carve the candles with. If you do not want to carve 7 candles you can get a 7 day candle available at most grocery stores.

A white cloth

3 pennies

Cleanse yourself with the lavender, rosemary and sea salt scrub in the recipe above.  After you have cleansed, create a small sacred space where you can work and not be disturbed.  Place the white cloth on the sacred space and lay your candles or 7 day candle out.  Place your hands on them and visualize everything you'd like to be uncrossed.  Really spend time focusing and put your energy into the candle/s.

Take the herbs and oil or just oils and mix them together creating a blend.   Take the property that you need most, lets say cleansing and use that as your base oil or herb, then add the others accordingly until you have a good blend.  Place your hands over the oils and chant from your heart.  You can even sing, talk to the oil or hum.  Whatever feels right and allows you to connect. 

When you are ready take the candles and your tool to carve them.  If you are using a 7 day candle you can use a sharpie marker to write on it or a blank piece of paper and pen.  Carve your intentions into the candle, It doesn't matter if it overlaps or gets messy, let your mind be free of those things and allow them to come out on the candle.  If you are carving all 7 you can either do them all at once or day by day.  When you are finished writing, take the oil in your left hand and rub from the halway point first up and then down.  If you are using a 7 day candle, pour a little of the liquid into the candle and with a screwdriver or a nail poke holes into the wax to let the oil seep in. Blow on the candles 3 times.

When you are finished once again hold the candle and light it.  Sit with the candle and visualize your life being free from the things that hold you back and cross you.  Chant, sing, whisper, do whatever you need to raise power and feel connected.  When you are finished take a deep breath and feel your body release any negativity. Take the flowers and place them by the candle/s creating a peaceful place for your magic to work.

For 7 days cleanse youself with the rosemary, sea salt, and lavender and spend time buy the candle breathing and visualizing your body being unblocked and your roads opening.  At the end of the 7 days throw out the flowers.  If you used the 7 day candle put it into a plastic bag and break the glass then throw it out. 

Take three pennies and go to the crossroads.  Leave them at the crossroads to open your road.


Dreams Are Real 017: Crash, Burn, Make Magic

Crash, Burn, Make Magic.  Maybe that will be the title of my next book.  Last night I dreamt I married the dead under a long Spanish veil. My Mom wasn't surprised. "She just couldn't ever connect with the live ones." she said, as the family cleared up the guest chairs. I was sad about it.  I woke up perplexed, unable to think of anything except that dream and photographs I had to send to a magazine. 

I sent them out, gathered my ipod, and set out to clear my mind by walking around the neighborhood.  I forget sometimes how little I actually explore the place where I live, how there are restaurants that have been there for years that I have never set foot in, parks I walk past but barely see.  Something has shifted in me lately, something huge.

I'm going to take you on a journey, backwards of course, rewinding itself, weaving back and forth to Friday.  My life partner in witchiness Sherene Schostak is getting married in France.  Her engagement party fell on the evening before Venus retrograde in Scorpio.  Beautiful women gathered in Duane Park to toast her marriage and celebrate each other.  Kiki T and I sat next to each other commenting on the attire.  Each woman was dressed like a different era.  We laughed ate, listened to the music, and watched beautiful burlesque performers.  The night was like magic. I wrote in journal, how unbelievably amazing my life had become in just a short period of time.  Yes, I keep a paper journal.

The next night I greeted Jill Tracy in a feather boa and lace gloves.  We had a glamorous dinner at a locacl resturant and spent the rest of the evening telling hilarious tales over pinot noir.  Jill has been an amazing inspiration for me over the years and meeting her was like seeing an old friend.  She's playing this wed at Union Hall at 8:30 with Army of Broken Toys

Jill gave me an amazing JT doll by Kerry Kate of October Effigies.  Other treasures I have received recently are Kai Altair's album and Walter Sickert & the Army of Broken Toys.  I also finally got my mantilla and comb from Spain for the upcoming Dr. Sketchy's.

Fast forward to today my mind kept flashing back and forth, images of people, and places.  It wouldn't calm down, I couldn't paint. I wasn't angry or sad or anything in between, just off.  You see, this is where the story actually begins.  Last week everything changed; the muses, the trust, the alcohol, the creation.  Mike Lala and I did an impromptu piece, a prayer of sorts, at the Jazz and Wordsmiths event.  Between sips of wine and absinthe we wrote and spoke.  I knew things were shifting, our projects coming together but I didn't know how or why.  We spoke in secret that night, codes only we knew the combinations to.  All of this will make sense in a minute, I swear.  I told him at a Speakeasy.  "I think you've become my muse."  We had both been on the muse journey recently.  Late into the evening we parted ways.  "I have to make peace with my past." I said.  "Do you need me to come with you?" He asked. 

"I think I have to do this one on my own." I walked away waiting until he left and walked to C-Squat.  I sat on a stoop nearby and drank absinthe from my flask.  I tried not to cry.  For years Holly and Brian had been my muses and even after their deaths, they still remained.  There was a part of me that just didn't want to let go, that thought that I could never have this kind of passionate, creative relationship again, or maybe was afraid of replacing it and them.  But time changes, and people change, and sometimes you can't hold onto that anymore.  And sometimes new people come into your life, and you have no idea why you're so connected to them or trust them but you do.  And it's ok.  Mike texted me, "Are you okay?" I texted back.  "Always."  I finished my flask and ventured back home.

I got home and snapped two images of what I was wearing and stripped down.  I cried again.  Mike had texted me to see if I had gotten home safe.  I wrote him back.  It was secret and cryptic.  He understood.  I sent him a picture the next day.  It wasn't sexy, or smart, or anything in between. Just a captured moment of someone letting go of something that was holding her back.  We are not our past, we're only what we make of ourselves in the present, and what we will make of ourselves in the future.  I tell Mike half jokingly, "My next book will be all about you."

 For an hour I sat on the swings today, in one of those parks I always walk by, and just let the motion take over.  Sometimes you have to let go in order  to move forward. 


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Dreams Are Real 06: What Inspires You?

It's Saturday night and I'm going through my files for inspiration.  What new things are we brewing here in the Caravan?  Well, Scarlet O' Hoodoo will be here soon, bringing you mojo bags, original art, charms, readings, pulp fiction, mojo bottles, and a new blog full of divination tips, Native American moon names, the language of animals, and secret spells.  My good friend Lonesome Liz will be writing the perilous tales of Scarlet O' Hoodoo, (a character she came up with based on yours truly), Detective Lonesome Liz, and the love interest of Scarlet herself (TBA).  It's bound to be filled with 1950's film noir effects and Twilight Zone like scenerios, and hoodunits, all while offering up all of your hoodoo needs.  So here's a little of what is inspiring me these days.  What is inspiring you?

Music by Jill Tracy, directed by Bill Domonkos.
A lavish chiaroscuro montage of 2D and 3D animation, still photography and hand drawn images, "The Fine Art Of Poisoning" seduces the viewer into an elegant netherworld of deceit, plotting, and secretly-served revenge.

Max Rabe performs Friedrich Hollaender's & Rudolf Nelson's famous cabaret song "Das Nachtgespenst" (The Bogeyman) from 1930 in Ilona Ziok's internationally awarded musical film "Kurt Gerron's KARUSSELL"

Lady Lavona's Cabinet of Curiosities

Kristamas Klousch