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Knickerbocker Circus 012: Words with Jam & Filthy Gorgeous Things

Words with Jam did an excellent review of Blood and PuddingMany thanks to Mr. Dan Holloway.

Click the images to download the pdf.

And coming out on the same day is this hysterical interview Chelsea Summers and I did over wine. We talked emotions, channeling Bettie Page, jism, and kissing The Hedgehog. So if you aren't down with any of the above, this interview is not for you.  NSFW Click the pic to be taken to the interview.  Chelsea will also be reading one of her pieces at Red Umbrella Diaries tomorrow evening at Happy Endings.  Red Umbrella Diaries is hosted by the ever enchanting Audacia Ray.

I also wrote an article for Filthy Gorgeous Things.  I talk about exposing yourself as an writer, artist, etc.  Below is an excerpt.

"…there is a part of you that rips the flesh open, breaks a rib and says, "Look, here's my heart, touch it. You feel that? Yes, that's one hundred percent real blood pumping, go ahead and have a feel."


Pimp My Artwork 024: Art & The Shadow Side

 A few nights ago I sat on a bench in Battery Park with my favorite Russian Gypsy.  As we watched the water from the illuminated seats we talked of our similarities, the tarot, and understanding the shadow side. 

Oh the shadow side.  The eclipse heightened it a few weeks ago and Saturn in Libra has merely switched it from inner turmoil and psyche to relationship lessons.  Our shadow sides bring up fears and insecurities, it makes us want to blame others for our misfortunes or mistakes.  It takes over when we're lonely, and guilt trips us into depressions.  This may sound like a terrible place to be but it's just another place we must explore on our own paths.  

I recently wrote an article on being naked, as in exposed, as a writer, an artist, and a model.  In order for us to truly see who we are as creatives and individuals we must travel through our darker realms of subconcious.  When I was writing Blood and Pudding I knew it would be painful but I also knew by writing it and putting it out there that I would be able to move on. 

I had an lover once that used to make me crack up.  We were both light happy people yet both of us created very dark things.  For him it was music, and for me it was art.  I have some heavy pieces sitting in my house right now.  Most of the people who have seen them know me as a happy individual and simply say, "that's looking pretty good.  Seems you have a bandage fetish as of late."  And I laugh because it's true. 

The shadow self is how we deal with negativity and unwanted thoughts.  For me, it's through creative means.  Because I paint and write heavily it allows me to be lighter emotionally.  It doesn't mean I don't have my bad days.  I'm a worrier, my moon is in Capricorn you see, but my shadow side works best when I let it have it's own space.

So while these planetary shifts take place, Mercury is in Virgo and Neptune is in Aquarius, take the time to meditate, acknowledge, and let go anything that is holding you down or back. Below are a few images of my shadow side in physical form. 

During a recent wonderfully crazy drunken interview with Chelsea Summers, she noticed a small letter "B" necklace around my neck. 

"What's that?" She asked.

"Yeah, it's for Brian." And I thought to myself, there's some shadows that are harder to let go than others.  But it reminds me that I loved once, and I loved so much that I was willing to do anything for that person.  And it tells me that one day I will love like that again.

Chelsea snapped this picture of me outside while we were drinking wine.  That is my serious tipsy face.



Pimp My Artwork 023: La Gitana and Other Fine Tales

As you can see this website got a makeover.  Now if only the weather would get a nice makeover.  I could use a good summer thunderstorm. 

I just finished the new header for the website.  Summer is a magical time and this summer is no exception.  I read tarot at Bull Moose last week and it went wonderfully. I was even promised Romanian soup once the kitchen opens. Thank you to everyone who came to say hello and to new friends.  Chelsea Summers took this image of me in Gypsy attire.

And here's the work in progress image of the header.

This was an interesting piece as it contains so much symbolism.  My spiritual path has a lot to do with working with ancestors so I incorporated orange mums, Day of the Dead figures, death watch beetles, and owl butterflies.  Of course the War Birds paid a visit as well, for to truly find the light you must embrace the darkness on your path.  I wrote a little blog about deathing rituals here.  Sometimes we have to say goodbye to one aspect of our lives in order to make way for new ones.  Sometimes they hurt, and sometimes they don't, but we keep growing, moving, and learning.

I also sent the first love letter to nobody out into the universe.  On the way back from MA, I slipped it into the seat on the Amtrak.  I hope whoever found it enjoyed it.

And speaking of magical things.  Cynthia von Buhler sent me her wonderful Shakespeare Oracle deck along with an original and other goodies.  I am so grateful to have received this gift.  Please check out her work if you don't already know it.  It's magnificent.  And I'm sure I'll be reading this deck the next time I'm over at Bull Moose.



Dreams Are Real 012: Charmed Life

Last year Aidinah, Dan, and I sat a table in Veselka sipping coffee.  "You live a charmed life." She said smiling.  We hadn't seen each other in years, not since her East Village apartment.  I looked down at my coffee.  I had been sulking all morning that I wasn't living there myself, that NYC wasn't the place I had moved here for, and it wasn't the 80's graffiti strewn streets.  But when someone brings that to light, it's a whole other story.  So I sat there, smiling, nodding, holding my coffee with both hands, like they do in the movies.

I forget that I love NYC sometimes.  I forget how I feel when I'm walking down the street and I catch a whiff of a bakery, or back in the 90's a cigar shop.  Pipe tobacco wafting through the city streets is still one of my favorite scents.  Brings me right back to the BMW Bar, and drinking wine while listening to bands play on Sunday nights.  You could smoke in bars then.  Travelers of all sorts lit cigarettes and breathed in the music.

The BMW Bar no longer exists, CBGB's lost it's lease, and The Chelsea Hotel lost it's soul in 2007. I was even upset when I saw the plan for what was going to happen to Coney Island.  Looking at that strange tight map all I could see was Miami's Deco Avenue and Vegas combined.  But even if NYC is changing, walking down the boardwalk with Chelsea Summers made me remember why I love this city. We had just come from the Mermaid Ball wearing gowns and tiaras.  We walked off the walkway and into the lot, looking at the Cyclone's neon light.  She snapped a picture and I remembered.  I like hanging out with people who live in the city, who love the city for all the frustration, chaos, creativity, and wonderment it brings.

Photos by Chelsea.  You can check out more on her NYC photo blog here

As it turns out, I write about NYC quite a bit in my own script.  I recently wrote a piece for The Red Umbrella Diaries.  Oh New York you pesky demon you, always showing up in my thoughts, my dreams, and my heart.  And a big thank you to Mike Lala for being my wonderful editor on this piece, who saved all my grammar in a matter of minutes, and the man who gave me the brilliant first line.  Mike says I'm not ready to leave New York yet.  Maybe he's right.

Umbrella by yours truly. 

I found this ring on the street after receiving a special message from a friend.  Yes, je t'adore aussi.